Turbulence of Silence

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This January was a turbulent month, not that I strongly believe in Dr. Bejan Daruwalla but most of what he has predicted or rather anticipated would happen, did come true. As always ( I don’t know why I explain what I expect of any post), I am pretty sure that this post may have nothing which you can connect with, but I am sure you might at least spend some time pondering and that may be all that this reading might offer, but it is no modest aspiration to say so..

This month was a ride through the lanes and streets of the weird city of silence. Silence in abundance is tranquility. Tranquility helps us reach to that point within ourselves that we tend to connect with the free energy of the universe. Penance is probably one of the spin-offs of this ride. Critically, if I need to analyze how this ride brought with it an enriching experience then I need to put it as how it acts as an emotional drain. It fixes the fountain and then it drains us off the emotional slack helping us reinvent ourselves. So, this post is dedicated to my experiences with silence .. Thank you !

Moments…

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Ignorance is not a fault. But the only problem is when people read it as arrogance. Elements of stupidity exist in everyone of us. But you never know when they attain the stature of main stream behavior. Life and human emotions, I guess one can never get enough of, we set out thinking to dictate terms to life but end up following rules set by it!

“Are you actually buying into this harebrained idea? If so, let saner minds prevail yours. Step back from the situation and listen to your instinct. Is this really a good idea? Your intellect will tell you otherwise. Heed the warning..”

Thinking beyond reason is also an issue which i was confronted with. Words.. simple words have deep impact, taking you beyond the boundary of reason and logical chronology of events. Every value, moral definitions are relative and you tend to understand the subtle difference only when you face situations which I guess are beyond any description and human comprehension.

I am not speaking of a challenge but a struggle of Self Vs Self which I am sure most of us have had experience of, albeit without comparison or similarities. It needs a different mood to understand that you are loser and you yourself are the winner too. Personality is probably a rainbow of shades and you never know what shade your personality is projecting today.

To sum it up, I guess this post has no relative significance (not that most of the others had any profound influence on the readers except for few) to anyone except me and it stands a testimonial for yet another night which I cant forget…
P.S: I dont know why that paragraph alone is marked in violet..

Prologue: Six Triangles of Human Existence

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This post and the subsequent posts under this theme are only meant for people who wish to understand philosophy from an individual’s point of view rather than the accepted notions of religion. I need not stress on the point that subscribing to a religious belief or rather an ideology doesn’t meant that one is totally supportive of the entire religious doctrine. A point(s) of difference exists and I say , is the reason for our existence. Differences in thought, in action sustains the juice for everyone of us to appreciate. Similarities cant generate interest, all of us seek that difference between the two individuals, difference between our aura and the aura of the supreme soul. What I wish to talk about under this theme is that I wish to present my view or my understanding of scheme of things. Individuals , their actions, moral values. decisions etc. are all a part of the bigger picture of understanding their philosophy. This is an attempt to put my thoughts in words so that, people (which includes me) will be able to appreciate the emotions behind my words.

Soul Connection is one of the post which was an attempt to understand and view people with respect to how the entire equation is controlled by a supreme soul and we are all a part of it trying to align ourselves towards to attain salvation. Few considered it an amateur effort to fill the void within me, with a sense of understanding self rather than facing the reality.

Critics and their analysis is always a help, for the amount of emails I received regarding the soul connection drove me to explain my primary belief to see the bigger picture rather than keep ourselves to the small bits of it. This attitude to live life as a collection of moments rather than the moments alone was the major point which was debated in my post Are you in next?

I wish to take this opportunity to thank all the readers and the curious of you who mailed me to understand what I meant through that post. The reason I wish to speak of it now, many days after it has been posted is I still receive emails asking me to explain that post in a more simple way. This post is only an acknowledgment of the fact that I am grateful to those who instigated me to explore that thought once again and present my perception.

Analysis is possible only when things stay the same, which is not the case. Learning is a continuous process and we evolve into a better being every single day thinking about how the difference that exists can be understood better. This Series is an attempt to look at my thought expressed in Are you in next? from proximal quarters . Though this frames my or an individual’s perspective on happenings around us, it definitely would stand as a better projection of the idea listed in Are you in next? . I hope the readers would enjoy it.

Before I close I wish to convey my sincere feelings of gratitude to Ms. Anania from Greece who convinced me to pursue this idea of expressing that thought (lost in the annals of time) elaborately through this series. I encourage everyone to comment for it would help to know you as well as myself better !

Stranger Vs Self

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This post happens to be the result of my another tryst with Silence. Firstly I understood that silence can come visiting not only between two phases of a conversation but also when moments of the past seem to weigh heavily on you.

I came across the line To know where you stand in life measure how lonely you sleep in the night, not the crowd that surrounds you in the day’ when I was talking to a friend of mine. Memory did the rest to bring forth memories of the past, moments which were long forgotten. This was an enough invitation for the consent of silence to come visit me. This meeting was rather pleasant one, if i describe it that way. It made me understand how life defined as collection of memories seems to enjoy a lonely existence.

Are dreams only a experiment of our imaginative creativities or the delicate realities of our thoughts. How I had to grow over looking from within my self to look from beyond self. To visit ourselves as a stranger needn’t always be a pleasant experience. Moments arise and pass , days move out , nights move in creating that rift between the two beings within you. Its tough to understand that we need to rise above the conflict between the two and pull ourselves to be a stranger, to our own self to see the larger difference beyond the differences between the two beings within us.

Its tough to know whether we have the dare to seek the company of that stranger .. the only thing i can say is “Its definitely worth it”.

Let Silence be Heard!

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Silence is perhaps the most interesting phase of a conversation. Seldom do we realize that conversation frames an attempt to acknowledge the sense and ignore our emotions. Its only during the interregnum between two phases of a conversation that silence steps in. Rarely do we understand the power of silence and the difference it creates during that moment. It can bind people together with a bond of imagination that can never be broken. For in times of confusion, it is your trusted companion. In times of sadness, it has the power to console you. In times of anger, it will give a reason to think. Fragility of our thought added with Dignity of the Soul seek silence and surrender before it.

Apt is the line “Ubi Maior, minor Cessat!” People surrender before silence which has a different set of rules. It advocates divinity of thought and cruelty of the soul, for it minces your thought to reach to the level of self-realization , it churns your soul to raise its immunity to face cruelty. Silence never really gives birth to profound thought. It only plays the priest at your apotheosis to the level of a divus, when confusion about your actions ceases to exist. It places a quilt of tranquility over the logic and allows your emotions to reason it out. And this happens to be the reason behind many profound thoughts, for it fills ours space with a different paradigm of existence.

So do realizations happen when you listen to your heart or simply Let Silence be heard ?

Conflict : Mind Vs Soul

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Life goes a complete circle making us fathom the power of emotions. Indeed, it is tough to acknowledge that realisation visits us after the action is already out there.
No wonder ‘ When Harry met Sally ‘ was great hit. It speaks of how experiences are beyond imagination ( read Human Comprehension) and archiving of memories and experiences doesnt help In that story Sally and Harry share a plane flight. Sally is in a relationship with Joe , while Harry is about to get married to Helen .Harry explains why men and women can’t be friends, even if they’re in a relationship with other people. They part ways again once the flight is over.
Is it the convention that Soul and Mind play opponents so that things happen in life , or is it simple coincidence. Pleasant are memories which never existed or rather they never are owned by one being. Is it a trade-off between the memories and happiness that bothers the human heart?
Love, Hatred, Friendship, Enemity, Strangers … Everyone seems to be related and we indeed exist in a small world both physically and metaphorically. Living is a constant struggle to arrive at a compromise between the desires of the mind and values of the soul. In the triangle of Mind-Heart-Soul, this compromise plays on the heart and so on emotions.
Isnt there a way to win over yourself? People misinterpret that satisfaction is winning over one’s heart but seldom do they know that it is about a successful compromise that defines satisfaction than understanding of the heart.
Fate, Destiny .. we can name a battery of words which are supernatural and are not within our reach of understanding. As Paulo Coelho puts it,”Fate is only the wind that drives your ship, it is you, who sets the sails of the ships and steer it along.” . I trust it is our actions to arrive at the compromise that defines the direction of the sails and fate only fuels it.
I guess corrections, excuses are only a part of this drill to notice the right direction. Seldom do we find a pure existence and no one is any different. Varied Sizes of the fingers serve a purpose, so do these inflictions on the soul… Sorry I feel is not only a convention to speak of ending with a full stop, but also to look beyond to understand and channelise the sails of our ship!
No wonder, knowledge of the destination makes the ride boring and every experience forms a part of the adventure called life. Its about adjusting the weights for your mind and soul rather than changing the parameters in the compromise.
Excuse us all God!

Words…

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Smile
An everlasting smile
A smile can bring you near to me
Don’t ever let me find you wrong
Cause that would bring a tear to me
This world has lost it’s glory
Lets start a brand new story
Now my love

You think that I don’t even mean
A single word I say

It’s only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

Talk
In everlasting words
And dedicate them all, to me
And I will give you all my life
I’m here if you should call to me

You think that I don’t even mean
a single word I say

It’s only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

It’s only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

This world has lost it’s glory
Let’s start a brand new story
Now, my love

You think that I don’t even mean
a single word I say

It’s only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

It’s only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

It’s only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

(Words by Boyzone…The reason the lyrics of this song frame a post on my blog is because I finally understood the power and meaning of words and the strength they can give…and why I wish to put this in pink.. even I dont know)

Heresies of My Existence

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There existed…
A Second to look beyond days and nights,
two of its kind saw years keeping them apart.
Puritanical until the very moment, wasn’t it?


There existed…
Times when kids played with one another,
no one let them have a second chance.
Everyone is bound to grow, Weren’t they?


There exists…
Wetness beneath the slab all day,
seldom does the icing know about the cake that’s set.
Life doesn’t allow a middle drop, does it?


There exists…
“A Set line that’s shown”, told the paper,
better look beyond the line atleast once.
There is always a reason to smile, isn’t it?


There shall exist…
Places and memories: vastly different,
change this self and allow the little sea through.
Whilst Pound remains a set of pints, will you?


There shall exist…
Reasons when men shall shout “Place back that moment”,
the change won’t be large even when one moves miles apart.
Life will remain a collection of memories, Will it not?

She…

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She may be the face I cant forget,
the trace of pleasure or regret.
May be my treasure
or the price I have to pay.

She may be the song that Summer sings,
may be the chill the autumn brings.
May be a hundred different things
within the measure of a day.

She may be the beauty or the beast,
may be the famine or the feast.
May turn each day
into a heaven or a hell.

She may be the mirror of my dream,
the smile reflected in a stream.
She may not be
what she may seem.

She who always so happy in a crowd,
whose eyes can be so private and so proud.
No one’s allowed to see them
when they cry.

She may be the love that cannot hope to last,
may come to me from the shadows of the past.
That i remember
till the day I die.

She may be the reason I survive,
the Why and wherefore I’m alive.
The one I’ll care for through the rough
and ready years.

Me I’ll take her laughter and her tears,
and make them all my souvenirs.
For where she goes I’ve got to be
the meaning of my life is She.

(This work is not mine but is close to my heart & that I relate to)

Ingenuine Clarities

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Standing against the wet wall of loneliness,
While time became a silk knot pressing your breath.
Why dip your pen into invisible ink,
To mince your heart?

Instead of a miserably hybrid grub,
Or the curved, wrinkled arms of destiny.
Think of the rain dribbling on the ivy leaves,
Or the
euphonious breeze of wind etching life.

Oh! My consanguineous Cousin,
Claim your happiness for you’re worth it!
And my
obeisance,
For your support is
sui generis.