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Holy flickr’ing batguano…

August 31, 2004 at 7:51 pm | In yulelogStories | Comments Off on Holy flickr’ing batguano…

Hello, I’m testing the “blog this” feature on Flickr, and it’s
way too fast for me.  This is a photo of an old “castle”
(actually, a McMansion of its day) a few blocks from where I live — it
was posted on Flickr by Bananrama, and I hit the “blog this” button on
that wonderful site while I was composing my own entry.  But guess
what?  Those super-efficient Vancouver lads and ladies made sure
it really did: blogged it pronto.  Well, try the links that came
with it, since Banarama has some other interesting “Victoria” (and
other locale) photos, and do try out Flickr. 

I’m back to trying the entry I was working on, dusting off the old
hammer and chisel, in readiness for the slower pace I’m used to…

Weather Report: Some rain, finally

August 22, 2004 at 2:34 pm | In yulelogStories | 1 Comment

In Northern Hemispheres: Delusions

August is a vicious month.
It walks on legs unsteady,
Made prickly by a previous
Winter’s weight of bad choices.
Well stuck together by the colder months,
Held fast internally they were, yet seemed to move.

But July’s heat unglued these parts,
The conglomerates of histories,
And stumbling,
August can enact the full disaster
Of merciless summings up
Where disparate bits of acts
That once cohered into a whole
Are counted into little pieces stripped of greater worth.

July already was headless —
The dessicating heat took that part first.
But August loses its standing
Seemingly entire, until
The whole explodes in a soundless shout,
And it’s up to a wiser September
To start a new beginning.

August needs the kindness we give to rotting meat.
Best taken out of circulation, best put away, en vacance,
Till decomposition has made of it a different thing.
In a later month, fecunded by time,
It will become a different story.

Someone told me that the native Garry Oak explodes when suffering from extreme drought stress. Unlike my imaginary August, the Garry Oak doesn’t have legs, but, if my source wasn’t kidding, it ejects limbs, popping them off with a bang (i.e., not soundless). We finally had some rain yesterday. It was the first significant rainfall in months and months, notwithstanding the little bits of spittle we had a couple of weeks ago: those evaporated as soon as they hit the ground. Yesterday’s rain was real, managing to soak into the parched ground at last. After nearly two decades of Atlantic weather where one could count on lots of rain in the summer, I’m still getting used to these extremely dry summers. Coincidentally, I heard Andrei Codrescu on the radio the other day, lamenting the endless rain which plagues this summer in most of the US. He suggested that in the Pacific Northwest we must be used to it, but that the rest of the continent isn’t, and I thought: what is he talking about? This particular corner of the Pacific Northwest is in what pilots call a blue hole. True, in the winter, we get drizzle, but it’s nothing like the rain one sees on some Massachusetts spring or fall days. One day last October, everyone in Victoria seemed to be up in arms about the rainfall of the century — which in fact was a wet blanket compared to the flash-flood type conditions I’ve seen elsewhere. At other times, a gentle, drizzly rain — occasionally whipped into something more forceful by winds — haunts our late fall and winter, and lasts into spring. Things grow year-round, except in summer when lack of water puts them into dormancy, but it’s not unusual to see blooms in December. Well before spring is over, the dry season starts: this year, we stopped having rain in early May, I think. Even April was fairly dry, which was really unusual. That’s when people started watering their lawns in earnest, and I began looking forward to torturing into dormancy the little patch of lawn I do have. (I’m not partial to tending lawn.) By June you’re wondering whose children you can sell to afford an efficient irrigation system because you’re losing the battle with the garden hose and your perennials and shrubs are croaking. When summer is in full swing, I become increasingly distracted from any kind of head-work: the relentless daylight (long long evenings lit up by sunshine), the dry, desert-y conditions that seem to demand silence, but which are instead answered by insomnia caused by the non-silence of the unending traffic which you can hear so well through all the opened windows, the roar of float plane traffic, the bells of Christ Church Cathedral, the Esquimalt train, the bridge traffic, the open-air concerts at Centennial Square… And the sun that starts up again at 5 a.m. when normal people should be asleep… Aside from the heavy metals and other pollutants spewed into the air by the cars and trucks (which don’t have any environmental emissions restrictions on them, courtesy of the Canadian and British Columbia governments), there are simply no particles in the air: no moisture, no humidity, no rain. This is why the air has no power to buffer, and everything travels in a kind of immediacy, albeit with arrested development, too: things only get so far before they stop to demand water. Well, it beats hot-hazy-humid weather hands down, and the winters are so easy here, too: surely my sun-and-drought-induced insanity will be temporary. Thank heavens the world is round, and turns, and that people, with the help of the moon, thought of parsing the year into named months. That way, sometimes one can regress into anthropomorphising and feel a little high on sniffing that old glue.

Right of Way, Coming Through: What’s important these days, anyway?

August 9, 2004 at 10:16 am | In yulelogStories | Comments Off on Right of Way, Coming Through: What’s important these days, anyway?

Well, hold on to your hats if Adam Sparks’s editorial, Why Kerry Will Lose The Election in the San Francisco Gate is on the money. What I really distrust in Sparks’s analysis is his manipulation of how we should perceive perception: Sparks regards the potentially popular perception that Kerry would be (marginally, infinitesimally) better than Bush as deluded, even as he disregards the more global (figuratively and literally) perception that a Bush re-election will be a major signpost on the road to enlightened false consciousness as insignificant. I guess that’s modern cynicism, with sharp elbows: delusion isn’t useful unless you can push it into the other guy’s boots, in which case it becomes pure rhetorical gold; but insignificance is always majorly ok as it preserves the status quo.

Fellini was making documentaries

August 2, 2004 at 11:05 pm | In yulelogStories | 1 Comment

To blog or not to blog? Although not exactly taking a summer break, I’m an oppressed summery mass nonetheless, crushed by domestic chores that somehow seem to be going ’round and ’round, like an endless sushi loop at “Yo Sushi,” to quote Eddy from AbFab. Forget the links, no time. If you haven’t seen the show, tough. On Saturday the darling daughter (no sarcasm or irony here: this is in fact a very special person) took a head-first-over-the-handlebars tumble off her bike at Ross Bay Cemetery. She walked all the way home to our street at Rockland, which is quite a number of blocks, even in wee Fairfield. She was assisted by her brother and their very capable friend, who performed the heroic task of pushing her bike as well as his own the entire way. She and the brother meanwhile walked more quickly than the friend, she spilling blood most of the way. While avoiding skull fracture (she was of course wearing a helmet), she managed however to push three of her front teeth right through her lower lip/ chin area. If you’re a vegetarian, you won’t like the image this conjures, especially the consequent intervention of suturing and the reaction of the outraged flesh as the body marshalls its healing functions. Of course, some women would kill to afford the collagen injections for lips like that, but …. Fellini comes into the equation in the wake of our fast-paced but measured trip to the emergency room at the Royal Jubilee Hospital, followed by what seemed like an interminable wait. Can I just say right here that I hate the name of this hospital? Jubilee? Royal Jubilee? For a sick ward? The only other time I ever saw its emergency room was when, as a teen, I slammed a car door on my finger. It was very odd incident, somehow. I never really had boyfriends — I was such a CASTRATING BITCH with my smart mouth and my smart head and my smart autodidactic hands (in fact, the kids and I recently had a very deep conversation about sadism and masochism as a construct of sexist paternalism that explains why women should just lie down and think of England or something, so that guys and their one-eyed-trouser-snake [please see Caroline Knapp] could continue to feel empowered and superior) that most guys my age tended to stay away from me unless they were desperadoes, anarchists, or seriously on drugs — yet that one time in the hospital, I was there because I was actually on a “date” with a guy, which I suppose was so weird to me that I somehow had nothing better to do than slam the car door on my own finger. It happened right at Oak Bay Junction, in front of a store formerly known as Freddie the Freeloader’s. Hey, I’m my own dom, ok? This memory flooded back to me as we waited for six (6) hours (let me repeat that: six hours, sechs Stunden, six heures) to have my 10-year-old girl, who hadn’t shed even a single tear during this entire ordeal, be seen. Once she was seen, she was out of there in 15 minutes, but it took six hours to get to that point. Canada’s health care system has salient health — correction: sickness — issues. The main reason everything took so long was because the majority of the emergency beds are occupied by regular, long-term patients. It also certainly wouldn’t hurt if there were additional doctors on staff. One woman, a geriatric patient, has been occupying an emergency room bed for 35 (thirty-five!) days (as of Saturday July 31). The previous record was held by a guy who stayed for 30 days: I learned this from the doctor who eventually was able to show up. The emergency ward is so cheerless and discouragingly functional, I know I would feel that killing myself would be the better option than spending a month there, but if it were the only option, I would, I suppose, hang in there like anyone else, yet consider it a virtual reality version of Dante’s inner circle of Hell. Fellini. Let’s talk about that. Just a vignette, just a tiny bit, not a big panorama. There is no time for really long descriptions: I have recycling to take out and vacuuming to do and dishes to clear and laundry to sort. The waiting room: a man who kept offering bodily fluids in response to requests from a manic-seeming orderly. One moment it was en empty vial, then it seemed to be full of a clear liquid, then — I swear — he gave the orderly a vial of blood. Where did he get the blood? Did he draw it himself? Cradling my daughter, I start to overhear another group’s conversation. An older man — 83, I Iearn — is telling his granddaughter about his experience of surviving Nazi concentration camps during the Hitler period. He was Dutch and deported when he was 18. His mother and brother were murdered, his father died of other complications directly related to the prosecutions. He went to Germany this past May — to Celle — to attend a memorial. He’s kept up a regular association all these years. His wife, the granddaughter’s grannie, had stumbled that noon and broken her wrist, and husband and granddaughter whiled away their incarceration in the inner circle with stories. In this outermost outpost of colonial British empire, in an emergency room on a Saturday introducing a long holiday weekend (today, Monday, was “BC Day”), I get to listen to and then chat with an elderly gentleman who once had dinner with Chaim Weizmann. In Rotterdam, I think. At the invitation of a then-young friend whose rich father had invited Weizmann to star in a private fundraiser to raise money for the future Israel. While we’re talking about the ills of the world, while the elderly gentleman talks about how so many groups have been unspeakable, including the Belgians in the Congo, an impossibly obese woman who until recently had been loudly burping (and farting) in her sleep while she napped in the attached chair, piped in. I had just said something about Barbara Kingsolver’s The Poisonwood Bible, and, boom!, she was right on top of it. What was so discombobulating was that she knew all about concentration camp survivor stories, with which she was sympathetic, and she was very savvy about Kingsolver and literature in general; yet superficially, in terms of appearance and behaviour, she would be the kind of woman — she was only about 35 years old or so — who would be dismissed by those in power. She was truly obese, she had those terrible open leg sores, bad clothing (think toddler style in ultra-sizing), a non-haircut, and her voice added the coup de grace since it was cartoonishly out of place with her large body. She embodied a kind of North American removal of boundaries: huge, overflowing, but with a Mickey Mouse voice, as though she were thoroughly shaped and constructed by popular culture — McDonalds fastfood and Disney videos. When she spoke, the nasal cartoon sound signalled a discord with what she said. Yet judging by what she said, she had such a brain…. It was a weird contradiction to wrap one’s head around. Other walking wounded kept drifting in and out, including this unbelievably handsome built guy originally from Powell River — I mean built: biceps like a god’s, just gorgeous, abs like a really hard fantastic board you could bounce buns off, beautiful dark black eyes, black hair, olive skin: ooh, no average lumber jack from the Sunshine Coast was he. And what was wrong with him? He had seriously damaged his finger while … washing his kitchen floor. I’m not kidding. It was insane: older, thoughtful man with sometimes oddball ideas about history (he didn’t like the establishment of the state of Israel, for example), survivor of Bergen-Belsen; obese cartoon-character-like woman who nonetheless had a real intellectual life happening; built hunk of a guy who got whammied scrubbing the floor; possibly deranged mental case possibly homeless type offering what seems like an endless stream of bodily fluids; and so on…. And now the daughter is admitted to a real stretcher on the station (we’re in Area B, Bay 5; in Bay 4 we meet the grandmother whose wrist has just been set and bandaged and x-rayed several times), and in Bay 6 we eventually (after another hour) begin to chat with a Hell’s Angel type biker dude who was admitted because of wasp sting. Ok, laugh all you will, but this poor guy got stung on the arm on Friday, whereupon he went to a Walk-In Clinic. They treated him with Benadryl and icepacks and sent him home. During the night, he started having heart palpitations, the swelling increased to the point where there was no difference in shape articulation between palm of hand and shoulder: he felt truly scared now. However, all the Walk-In Clinics had closed on Saturday because it was a long weekend. An aside for non-Canadian readers: Walk-In Clinics serve as after-hours doctors’ offices — no Canadian doctor will accept calls or patients on weekends or after hours, and the Walk-Ins accept the overflow. But guess what? They closed for BC Day, so the only option was the hospital emergency room. Keep in mind that it’s a holiday weekend, a Saturday, and by now nearly 8 pm, meaning the drunk drivers and their victims were probably starting to filter in. And as with every emergency room, you get treated according to severity of injury, but unlike other emergency rooms, beds in Canadian emergency rooms are also occupied up to 80% by regular care patients who should be in the regular hospital or in a long-term situation (nursing home). In other words, we’re moving toward the eye of the needle here. It’s now after 8 and we still haven’t seen a doctor, but the daughter and I are sitting in an incredibly chilled ward (I get a blanket from the heating cubboard, a kind of reverse fridge, the daughter feels overheated from nausea), and the biker, in hushed tones, hisses out his story and leaves. I hope he went to a pub and had a beer, which probably cures wasp sting better than sitting in emergency for 7 hours. Another 40 minutes pass; a chaplain traipses in. The song “Vicar in a Tutu” by the Smiths springs to my mind afterward. The chaplain doesn’t identify himself as a chaplain to us, even though that’s how he introduced himself when he next went to the kitchen-floor-washer in Bay 6. The chaplain was lucky that he, garbed in shorts and regular shirt, couldn’t be identified as a person of responsibility: he made some terrible jokes, which in any case is an unforgiveable sin. Seeing my daughter, he asked her, “Had a fight with your boyfriend?” …Har har har, what a cutup. Can I just say that I had to restrain myself, and that it was my stupid “workers’ consciousness” that kept me from making mincemeat of this idiot? I thought he was just an ordinary orderly, hence “excusable” because possibly uneducated. That’s what I get for being such a prejudiced pre-judging dope. I should have treated him as a human being, in which case I would have skewered him and cut him to fucking ribbons. I mean, it’s so appropriate to make jokes about domestic violence, isn’t it, especially with a ten-year old who has been waiting for nearly 5 hours to be seen by a doctor, isn’t it???? O Canada. We stew for another hour, growing colder by the minute. Many hours earlier, the admitting orderly had made a joke about how they keep the temperature this low because they don’t want people to get comfortable and stay. Boy. And so we’ve stewed in reverse temperatures for yet another hour when, finally, the doctor arrives. Here comes yet another “documentary” moment: “Hey, I know you! You have a dog, don’t you? Yeah, we’ve chatted on Dallas Road!” Oh joyful noise: general backslapping and happy cheerful tones ring through the ward: we have dogs, we know each other. The doctor has a slight physical handicap, and also he’s American. All of this adds to the Fellini-esque aspect: the doctor is handsome and built-built-built, just like a floor-washer, but he is handicapped. His legs are uneven, he has trouble standing on an even keel: his top and bottom express a disjuncture. He tells us that although he came to Canada when Bush got elected, he will leave this country soon because he “just can’t practice medicine here”: he feels there is no certain ground to stand on here, his muscled arms can’t hold the object he desires. I am experiencing the Canadian emergency health care option through the eyes of an American doctor — although I have to add that several hours before, a Canadian doctor (granted, he had a Brit accent, so who knows where he was from) had ranted at length to another patient’s relative about the understaffing, the long shifts, the overwork, and how the administrators all get to go home for the long weekend while anaesthesiologists get to work 18 hour shifts. Documentary or Fellini? Different or same thing? Dr. Ex-Pat sews up the incredible hole inside my daughter’s lip, gets the nurse to put some polysporin on all the other wounds, and sends us home. Very efficient, once she got seen. But by now it’s dark and 10 pm. The next day (yesterday) I went to the health food store to buy meal replacement powder that can be mixed into drink form so that my daughter can take her meals through a straw. Next time, I’m calling the vet first. It’s faster, and they’re even around on weekends. And PS: Sorry about all the bad writing, but I really am blogging this on the fly. This is pre-first-draft stuff, and no, there will be no revisions, alas. For me, it’s back to turfing out the Augean stables, as Maria of Alembic (whom I owe email) would say…. The kitchen awaits, the basement beckons, the dust demands, and laundry pile grows by the hour. …With a knick-knack paddy-whack give the dog a bone, this girl’s gonna bomb her home. Eventually.

C’mon baby light my fire

August 1, 2004 at 12:08 am | In yulelogStories | 2 Comments

Who would have known?

I will be barbequed by an angry dragon

How will you die? Take the Exotic Cause of Death Test

Via the inimitable Doug writing here.